How to feel better?

After 4 months of getting back to work, i see myself thinking again. Right now all i want is to improve myself out, have a team for me to join and to collaborate under a leader,travel time is comfortable enough,pacing with new technologies for me to learn and others (can't say).

Honestly , i have this lifestyle that im doing everyday in which i cannot balance them right now. I feel restless every morning and cannot see things after work. You know how to figure it out.

I hope i will do this thing accurately and to such extent i can nail it the next time!

I have no problems against them it is just me and my active brain!